Why do we remain unmoved?

Chandler brought up this question this weekend and it has been haunting me ever since...which is exactly what he wanted that little stinker. Anyways...I have thought about it often times before, but I seem to all to easily forget. Eric and I have been talking about it a lot and it just makes me wonder what others are thinking about it. I want to be moved...I want to desire God and I want to know him more...but most of the time I do little to accomplish that. Sometimes I'm afraid that I will be one of those that makes it to see his face and he says he doesn't know me...which is so scary...but honestly I'm not sure if it's scary for the right reasons for me. I want to love him more than anything, but my heart is so easily swayed, which I hate...but most of the time don't even realize my idols until it's been an idol for a log time. I think that my two biggest idols are easily my husband...obviously...and my job. I love these two things more than life itself and would do anything for anyone on staff or for Eric if they only asked. I think I tend to get prideful in both of them, but mostly in my job. I don't mean to and in my head I don't think I'm cool because I'm on staff or anything, but some of the things I might say or do may seem like that. Eric actually called me out on something I said...which I didn't mean in a prideful way at all, but to "an outsider" it could potentially sound that way. I was glad he told me because I hadn't really ever thought about how I say things before. I am extremely grateful that God has allowed me to be on staff here and I don't think I'm here for any reason except that he has allowed me to be..definately not of my own efforts. But, it's easy, especially in comparing our church to other churches I've been involved in to be prideful in the fact that we are "different." If that makes any sense at all! I feel like I'm kind of rambling at this point...so all I can say is please pray for me. Please pray against any idol I might have in my life and also that I would deeply desire God above all things. I want to be annoying like Paul in my love for Christ, but I don't even know what that looks like in this culture and this time. I pray that we would all think about our idols and think of where we are unmoved and desire to love God more with our whole hearts.